Hey, I want to snuggle with you.

I want to go lay on your bed, you on your back with your left arm outstretched just right for me to sidle up to you, my head resting perfectly on your shoulder, my left leg over yours and tucked under the back of your shin.  I want to snuggle with you and put my left arm on your chest and run my fingers up and over you, over your shoulder, touch your ear, run my nails down your arm until my hand falls to your chest where I feel you breathe in and out in and out and in again until you rest your hand on top of mine, feeling how much smaller it is, and envelop it altogether.

I want to snuggle with you and have your body warm mine.  I want to snuggle with you and stretch to put my cold toes over yours and laugh at the jolt of cold that now courses over you.  We'll laugh and you'll ask how any person can always be so cold and bring me tighter and closer to you, my head now on your chest, you pulling the covers over us.

I want to snuggle with you because I love hearing your heartbeat.  I love listening and then proudly pronouncing like a five year old, "I can hear your heart beat, babe," and you, half asleep, say back, "Oh yeah? What's it saying?"  I'll just smile to myself and not say anything.  We both know what it says.  We both know it says that right now, it's perfect.  Right now, there isn't anything that could make this better.

I want to snuggle with you and not have you think about work or class or the score of the game.  I want to snuggle with you in silence, and just be.  I want to snuggle with you and know that you enjoy it just as much as I do only to have the silence interrupted by a joke about the neighbor downstairs ruining a great moment with his loud rock music and we'll both laugh.

I want to snuggle with you because with you I feel safe.  I love the smell of your cologne, the way you think I'm sleeping and kiss the top of my head.  I want to snuggle with you and close my eyes and feel like everything is going to be okay, it's going to be alright.

You and me, a story that never gets old:')

Tak terasa, sudah setahun lebih aku memilikinya. Berbagi kisah hidup dengannya, berbagi canda tawa bersama, hingga tak ada lagi luka tersisa. Hanya bahagia terasa. Bahagia, yang telah membuatku lupa akan hobi lamaku. Menulis. Yap, kesedihan telah menjadi inspirasi terbaikku dalam menulis. Seperti sekarang ini. Aku kembali disini, karena perasaan itu datang lagi.

Ya, sedih itu datang lagi. Sedih yang melukai ulu hati. Sedih dan tak sanggup menangis lagi. Demi Tuhan, aku tak ingin seperti ini. Yang kuinginkan hanyalah bahagia, yang kutemukan pada sosok indah seorang pria.

Pria itu, separuh hatiku dicuri olehnya. Separuh jiwaku terbang bersamanya. Dia lah pujaan hatiku, dan juga temanku. Sedihku, dan bahagiaku. Tuhan, aku sungguh tak ingin kehilangannya.

Namun kenyataannya, waktu berjalan begitu cepat. Begitu cepat hingga membuatku takut akan kehilangan waktu. Takut akan keterburu-buruannya yang membawaku semakin cepat sampai pada ujung waktu. Oh Tuhan, aku tak ingin menemui ujung waktu. Aku benci dia. Aku benci kesedihan yang telah diciptakan olehnya. Aku benci setiap tetes air mata yang jatuh saat bertemu dengannya.

For my lovely one

I want to wake up next to you, eat breakfast with you, get changed with you, play computer games with you, watching movies with you in bed, hold your hand and watch tv, send you cute texts, buy you gifts, nap together, wear your comfy hoody when I'm cold, look into your eyes, be with you at sunrise and sunset, cook for you, walk in the rain with you, fall asleep whilst on the phone to you, snuggle in bed, mess up your hair, and kiss you good night.




P.S : Wherever you are now, I miss you.

:')

"Maybe we could spend our nights together and maybe one day, we could live together. We could grow older and watch our lives change as we become the people we always really wanted to be. We could cuddle up in our king-sized-bed, because we can't handle anything smaller than that, and kiss all night long. We'll wake up in the morning and you'll have your coffee. We'll kiss each other goodbye and return home eight hours later, waiting to greet one another at the door.  We'll eat our dinner, cooked by you of course, and slip into bed shortly after. We'll maybe fool around and tell stories about our days and we'll shut our eyes and wake up to another day and another period of our lives. We'll have a couple kids, a boy and a girl, and we'll watch as they grow up and we'll grow older. We'll lose our youth and they'll find theirs and then we'll sleep into bed quietly with our hands intertwined. We'll shut our eyes and wake up in the morning and suddenly we're old and grey. You'll drink your coffee in the mornings, just like you always used to, and you'll kiss my forehead as you walk out to get the newspaper. We'll sit down and reflect on the times that we were young. Later on, we'll crawl into bed and sit side by side, reading our separate books until we can't keep our eyes open. You'll tell me that you love me and whisper into the darkness that you'll see me in the morning, hoping that I'll still be there when you wake up."

So cute aren't it?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

P.S. I miss my boyfriend :')

Kehadirannya (22111)

Berapa banyak tulisan yang hendak saya buat tentang dia. Atau pertanyaannya, kapan saya harus berhenti menulis tentang dia, saya tidak tahu jawabannya. Mungkin saya tidak akan pernah berhenti menulis tentang dia.

Dia telah mengubahnya. Hidup saya, kini terasa beda. Saya tahu itu, saya bisa merasakannya. Semenjak kedatangannya.

Seperti terbangun dari mimpi-mimpi buruk.

Mungkin anda berfikir ini terlalu berlebihan. Mungkin anda berfikir semua ini hanya bualan. Tetapi, yah, itulah yang telah terjadi.

Dia hanyalah dia. Tidak ada sesuatu yang menarik dari wajahnya. Dia pun bukan tipe seorang pria yang memiliki jurus-jurus jitu untuk mendapatkan perhatian wanita.

Tetapi, dialah yang menjadi alasan atas sebuah garis lengkung di wajahku. Dia pula yang telah menjatuhkan tetes-tetes air mata di pipiku. Dialah yang membuat semua ini terasa seperti....hidup.

Mungkin dia tidak tahu, saya pun enggan memberitahu dia. Bukan karena alasan apapun, tetapi, entah mengapa, saya ingin ia menyadarinya sendiri.

Dia telah memberikan cintanya padaku. Dari sekian banyaknya wanita, dia memilihku. 

Cinta itu seperti selalu ada untukku.

Cinta itu seperti seutuhnya milikku.

Mungkin anda tidak mengerti apa yang saya maksud. Tak ada yang bisa mengerti cinta. Kecuali jika kita menuliskannya. Menuliskan apa yang kita rasa.Tapi belum tentu, tulisan ini dapat mewakilkan apa yang kita rasa. Bahasa terlalu terbatas.

Saya memang bukan siapa-siapa. Saya bukan seorang wanita kaya raya yang memiliki banyak harta. Tetapi, saya punya cinta dan kasih sayang untuknya. Dan itulah mungkin dua hal yang saya punya, yang tidak dimiliki orang lain, yang tidak bisa anda lihat dan yang akan saya berikan untuk dia. Hanya untuk dia.

Saya tidak tahu hal apa yang telah membuat saya begitu mencintainya. Mungkin mobilnya, mungkin motornya, mungkin juga rumahnya. Oh, tidak, bukan itu yang saya maksud.

Senyum kecilnya itu, bagaimana bisa saya tidak tersenyum kembali saat melihatnya.

Mungkin hanya sekedar mengingat sepatu lusuhnya, jam tangannya, balutan kaos keren, wangi badannya. Saya suka wanginya, itu yang membuat saya betah berlama-lama duduk begitu dekat dengannya. Karena wangi tubuhnya.

Saya norak, mungkin. Tapi saya suka. Perasaan suka ini yang akhirnya membuat saya jujur pada diri saya sendiri. Lalu menuliskannya di sini.

Sudah lama saya tidak bercerita dengan mata yang berbinar. Sudah lama saya tidak punya perasaan deg-degan kecil di sini. Saya bahkan takut kalau mungkin saya kehilangannya. Karena sebenarnya saya sendiri tidak mau.

Mungkin ini memang sebuah tulisan yang sangat tidak menarik. Tetapi saya hanya ingin anda tahu, dan anda harus tahu, bahwa kehadirannya telah mengubah hidup saya.

So Far Away - Avenged Sevenfold

Never feared for anything
Never shamed but never free
A life that healed a broken heart with all that it could

Lived a life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could

Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book its burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you’re so far away

Plans of what our futures hold
Foolish lies of growing old
It seems we’re so invincible
The truth is so cold

A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find a place in my mind

Where you can stay
You can stay awake forever

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book its burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you’re so far away

Sleep tight, I'm not afraid
The ones that we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me
Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way
To live eternally

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book its burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I have so much to say and you’re so far away

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong enough despite
But I'll see you
When He lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands are tied

So far away
And I need you to know
So far away
And I need you to
Need you to know

Taylor Momsen's Biography

Taylor Michel Momsen (born July 26, 1993) is an American actress, musician and model who portrays the character of Jenny Humphrey on the CW television series Gossip Girl and portrayed the role of Cindy Lou Who in How the Grinch Stole Christmas, and fronts the rock band The Pretty Reckless.

Taylor Momsen was born in St. Louis, Missouri to a Roman Catholic family. As a little girl she attended Our Lady of Lourdes School and was raised Catholic. She began acting professionally at three years of age with a national commercial for Shake 'N' Bake. She was then cast in The Prophet's Game. In 2000, Momsen played the role of Cindy Lou Who in How the Grinch Stole Christmas. Two years later she was cast in the motion picture: Hansel and Gretel, in which she played Gretel.

Momsen's career came to a halt for over three years until she received the lead role in the never-aired WB series Misconceptions. In 2002, Momsen recorded "Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer" and "One Small Voice" featuring Myra and Camille Winbush for School's Out! Christmas. Momsen appeared in the 2006 film Saving Shiloh and also the 2007 Walt Disney Pictures film Underdog, as Molly. She auditioned for the title role in Hannah Montana, and was in the top three, but the role was instead awarded to Miley Cyrus. In 2008 Taylor Momsen starred as Jennifer in the movie "Paranoid Park", directed by Gus Van Sant. As of 2007 she plays the character of Jenny Humphrey in The CW television series Gossip Girl, which is based on the book series by Cecily von Ziegesar. Taylor attended the Professional Performing Arts School in New York City alongside Connor Paolo, Gregory Malek-Jones and Karina Pasian. Momsen, who appeared in only three episodes through the first half of season four, was then scheduled for an indefinite hiatus from the show.

In June 2008, at the age of fourteen, Momsen signed to IMG Models.

Taylor was the face of British fashion chain New Look for its spring/summer 2010 collection. After weeks of speculation of who was the face of Madonna's 2010 fashion line "Material Girl", Momsen was announced on July 15, 2010. A week later, Momsen was announced as the model for John Galliano's new women's fragrance, scheduled to launch in autumn 2010.

In March 2009 Momsen stated in an interview with OK! Magazine that her band The Pretty Reckless had then recently signed a deal with Interscope Records. She writes all the songs, sings and plays simple guitar on the album. She played her first tour with her band opening for The Veronicas on their Revenge is Sweeter Tour in spring 2009.

The band's debut album Light Me Up was released on 30 August 2010 in the UK, where it debuted at number 6, as well as at number 18 in Ireland. The first single "Make Me Wanna Die" was released on 30 May 2010, where it peaked at number 16, while the second single "Miss Nothing" which was released on 23 August 2010 peaked at number 39. The third single released has been "Just Tonight".