:')

"Maybe we could spend our nights together and maybe one day, we could live together. We could grow older and watch our lives change as we become the people we always really wanted to be. We could cuddle up in our king-sized-bed, because we can't handle anything smaller than that, and kiss all night long. We'll wake up in the morning and you'll have your coffee. We'll kiss each other goodbye and return home eight hours later, waiting to greet one another at the door.  We'll eat our dinner, cooked by you of course, and slip into bed shortly after. We'll maybe fool around and tell stories about our days and we'll shut our eyes and wake up to another day and another period of our lives. We'll have a couple kids, a boy and a girl, and we'll watch as they grow up and we'll grow older. We'll lose our youth and they'll find theirs and then we'll sleep into bed quietly with our hands intertwined. We'll shut our eyes and wake up in the morning and suddenly we're old and grey. You'll drink your coffee in the mornings, just like you always used to, and you'll kiss my forehead as you walk out to get the newspaper. We'll sit down and reflect on the times that we were young. Later on, we'll crawl into bed and sit side by side, reading our separate books until we can't keep our eyes open. You'll tell me that you love me and whisper into the darkness that you'll see me in the morning, hoping that I'll still be there when you wake up."

So cute aren't it?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

P.S. I miss my boyfriend :')

Kehadirannya (22111)

Berapa banyak tulisan yang hendak saya buat tentang dia. Atau pertanyaannya, kapan saya harus berhenti menulis tentang dia, saya tidak tahu jawabannya. Mungkin saya tidak akan pernah berhenti menulis tentang dia.

Dia telah mengubahnya. Hidup saya, kini terasa beda. Saya tahu itu, saya bisa merasakannya. Semenjak kedatangannya.

Seperti terbangun dari mimpi-mimpi buruk.

Mungkin anda berfikir ini terlalu berlebihan. Mungkin anda berfikir semua ini hanya bualan. Tetapi, yah, itulah yang telah terjadi.

Dia hanyalah dia. Tidak ada sesuatu yang menarik dari wajahnya. Dia pun bukan tipe seorang pria yang memiliki jurus-jurus jitu untuk mendapatkan perhatian wanita.

Tetapi, dialah yang menjadi alasan atas sebuah garis lengkung di wajahku. Dia pula yang telah menjatuhkan tetes-tetes air mata di pipiku. Dialah yang membuat semua ini terasa seperti....hidup.

Mungkin dia tidak tahu, saya pun enggan memberitahu dia. Bukan karena alasan apapun, tetapi, entah mengapa, saya ingin ia menyadarinya sendiri.

Dia telah memberikan cintanya padaku. Dari sekian banyaknya wanita, dia memilihku. 

Cinta itu seperti selalu ada untukku.

Cinta itu seperti seutuhnya milikku.

Mungkin anda tidak mengerti apa yang saya maksud. Tak ada yang bisa mengerti cinta. Kecuali jika kita menuliskannya. Menuliskan apa yang kita rasa.Tapi belum tentu, tulisan ini dapat mewakilkan apa yang kita rasa. Bahasa terlalu terbatas.

Saya memang bukan siapa-siapa. Saya bukan seorang wanita kaya raya yang memiliki banyak harta. Tetapi, saya punya cinta dan kasih sayang untuknya. Dan itulah mungkin dua hal yang saya punya, yang tidak dimiliki orang lain, yang tidak bisa anda lihat dan yang akan saya berikan untuk dia. Hanya untuk dia.

Saya tidak tahu hal apa yang telah membuat saya begitu mencintainya. Mungkin mobilnya, mungkin motornya, mungkin juga rumahnya. Oh, tidak, bukan itu yang saya maksud.

Senyum kecilnya itu, bagaimana bisa saya tidak tersenyum kembali saat melihatnya.

Mungkin hanya sekedar mengingat sepatu lusuhnya, jam tangannya, balutan kaos keren, wangi badannya. Saya suka wanginya, itu yang membuat saya betah berlama-lama duduk begitu dekat dengannya. Karena wangi tubuhnya.

Saya norak, mungkin. Tapi saya suka. Perasaan suka ini yang akhirnya membuat saya jujur pada diri saya sendiri. Lalu menuliskannya di sini.

Sudah lama saya tidak bercerita dengan mata yang berbinar. Sudah lama saya tidak punya perasaan deg-degan kecil di sini. Saya bahkan takut kalau mungkin saya kehilangannya. Karena sebenarnya saya sendiri tidak mau.

Mungkin ini memang sebuah tulisan yang sangat tidak menarik. Tetapi saya hanya ingin anda tahu, dan anda harus tahu, bahwa kehadirannya telah mengubah hidup saya.

So Far Away - Avenged Sevenfold

Never feared for anything
Never shamed but never free
A life that healed a broken heart with all that it could

Lived a life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could

Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book its burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you’re so far away

Plans of what our futures hold
Foolish lies of growing old
It seems we’re so invincible
The truth is so cold

A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find a place in my mind

Where you can stay
You can stay awake forever

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book its burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you’re so far away

Sleep tight, I'm not afraid
The ones that we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me
Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way
To live eternally

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book its burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I have so much to say and you’re so far away

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong enough despite
But I'll see you
When He lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands are tied

So far away
And I need you to know
So far away
And I need you to
Need you to know

Taylor Momsen's Biography

Taylor Michel Momsen (born July 26, 1993) is an American actress, musician and model who portrays the character of Jenny Humphrey on the CW television series Gossip Girl and portrayed the role of Cindy Lou Who in How the Grinch Stole Christmas, and fronts the rock band The Pretty Reckless.

Taylor Momsen was born in St. Louis, Missouri to a Roman Catholic family. As a little girl she attended Our Lady of Lourdes School and was raised Catholic. She began acting professionally at three years of age with a national commercial for Shake 'N' Bake. She was then cast in The Prophet's Game. In 2000, Momsen played the role of Cindy Lou Who in How the Grinch Stole Christmas. Two years later she was cast in the motion picture: Hansel and Gretel, in which she played Gretel.

Momsen's career came to a halt for over three years until she received the lead role in the never-aired WB series Misconceptions. In 2002, Momsen recorded "Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer" and "One Small Voice" featuring Myra and Camille Winbush for School's Out! Christmas. Momsen appeared in the 2006 film Saving Shiloh and also the 2007 Walt Disney Pictures film Underdog, as Molly. She auditioned for the title role in Hannah Montana, and was in the top three, but the role was instead awarded to Miley Cyrus. In 2008 Taylor Momsen starred as Jennifer in the movie "Paranoid Park", directed by Gus Van Sant. As of 2007 she plays the character of Jenny Humphrey in The CW television series Gossip Girl, which is based on the book series by Cecily von Ziegesar. Taylor attended the Professional Performing Arts School in New York City alongside Connor Paolo, Gregory Malek-Jones and Karina Pasian. Momsen, who appeared in only three episodes through the first half of season four, was then scheduled for an indefinite hiatus from the show.

In June 2008, at the age of fourteen, Momsen signed to IMG Models.

Taylor was the face of British fashion chain New Look for its spring/summer 2010 collection. After weeks of speculation of who was the face of Madonna's 2010 fashion line "Material Girl", Momsen was announced on July 15, 2010. A week later, Momsen was announced as the model for John Galliano's new women's fragrance, scheduled to launch in autumn 2010.

In March 2009 Momsen stated in an interview with OK! Magazine that her band The Pretty Reckless had then recently signed a deal with Interscope Records. She writes all the songs, sings and plays simple guitar on the album. She played her first tour with her band opening for The Veronicas on their Revenge is Sweeter Tour in spring 2009.

The band's debut album Light Me Up was released on 30 August 2010 in the UK, where it debuted at number 6, as well as at number 18 in Ireland. The first single "Make Me Wanna Die" was released on 30 May 2010, where it peaked at number 16, while the second single "Miss Nothing" which was released on 23 August 2010 peaked at number 39. The third single released has been "Just Tonight".